I reach moments of clarity sometimes and I can think very very clearly. I feel triumphant during these times. It is like I have actually learned from past experiences and am no longer naive and feel good when I know that someone is lying or at least not telling the whole truth. The one thing that I still struggle with in such moments is the why factor. I have a hard time trying to figure out why someone would lie in this certain situation, but then I understand how they try to make up for it. I have been there and kind of know the thought process....but I had very specific reasons for those times, and I am curious as to the reasons for this. Again, I wish that I could be that fly on the wall or at least be able to tap into what someone else is thinking.
As much as I am hating that I have to give up WoW, I am looking forward to the time that I am going to have free now. I want to spend these next two months before my deployment focusing in some key areas and coming up with a set plan and actually relax and do the things that I need to do to keep myself sane in the next year. And also, I want to do a lot more personal relfection in the next few months and be able to clear my mind in some key areas and overall just be more in balance in every part of my life.
The thought for today: Things are starting to click again for me, and I am beginning to wisen up a lot more about life. I am becomming more and more aware of some things that I need to focus on, and if I stay int he right frame of mind, I should be able to focus on these areas and improve my state of life a little.
